How was your day gorgeous?

Hello love. It was rather blissful actually. I managed to do a lot, and realise a lot too.

What I did:
- Made a very concise list of all the things I need to do before I leave.
- Found a suitcase.
- Cooked lunch for people I love.
- Made sure my sister knew that wherever I was in the world, I would always love her the most.
- Had an idea for a personal project I want to start. Coming soon. How exciting.

What I realised:
- I’ve been wasting my time caring about someone who doesn’t give a crap about me. It’s finally hit home. I get it now.
- I have an entire life ahead of me. And that’s pretty damned amazing.
- I am no fool.

you're beautiful

Right now, in this hour, on this day, after this week, during this life, I don’t feel it, and I don’t believe you. I appreciate your kindness though. Thank you sweetpea. I’m just too tired tonight.

Wow you seem awesome

This is fantastic. You are fantastic. You just made my day. Thank you.

do you smoke?

Parfois. 

Me juger tout ce que vous voulez.

C’est tout.

 nonexuberance said: but you’re a hottie so cmon lets be fair to the poor drunk bastards ;P
Bahaha. Yeah. Totally. That must be it……… :L
 
 nonexuberance said: step 1: wear really baggy clothes step 2: be very very cold to customers step 3: i’m sorry on behalf of males that these steps are necessary
1, I am fully covered except for my arms sometimes! 2, that is so against my nature, I don’t think I can. 3, ♥.

 above-thewater said: Well said. People who can’t control themselves in this way make me terribly sad. I hope you’re okay <3
And again, my url comes into the equation. Darling, just be human! Some people need this painted on their foreheads I think. And yes, I’m fine. Just pissed off really. Thank you, love. x

Admittedly, when I first saw the little (3) above my inbox a little rush of terror went through me. I thought: typical, waking up to a tirade of abuse/ insults/ derogatory questions first thing in the morning. Perfect.  But when I opened my inbox and this came up. Well. I couldn&#8217;t help but smile. It&#8217;s really lovely that someone took the time to send me, not one, but three little messages. So thank you, whoever you are. Really, really thank you.  It&#8217;s the little things that count and your little kindness of the day has not gone ignored. x

describe your perfect guy?

How horrific to be with someone perfect. 

No. 

I like my boys rugged and complex and intelligent and messy and lost. I like them to have depth and scars and a complicated history. I like artists and poets and writers and readers. I like boys who like graveyards and rain and art galleries and midnight adventures. I like boys who will buy me flowers, and tickets to shows, and will call me ‘my dear’ and ‘my darling’. Boys who are compassionate and kind and cultured and quirky.  Boys who understand the difference between sadness, sorrow, and grief.

uh I love love love your blog, I can relate man.

Uhm. Excuse me miss. You have a fab blog too. 

And I love your url. I laugh every time I see it on my dash. 

We are kindred spirits I think. 

Welcome to the family!

I Want To Tell You- The Beatles ~this song reminds me of you a little~

How cute!

“But if I seem to act unkind, it’s only me, it’s not my mind that is confusing things. I want to tell you, I feel hung up and I don’t know why. Sometimes I wish I knew you well, then I could speak my mind and tell. Maybe you’d understand.”

Yeah. Pretty much sounds like me haha. Sigh. x

favourite word for today? (-:

This is cute. I like you. 

Favourite words (yes, it has to be plural again) are:

  1. omnipotent
  2. repugnant
  3. inexorable
  4. indefatigable

Biggest regret?

*regrets

Ha. I have so many. 

Biggest would probably be not saying the things I want to say to people. I think a lot would be different right now if I had more guts. 

But. No matter. Life is what it is. And it’s going alright actually.

When was the last time you had sex?

Wouldn’t you like to know. 

And if this is who I think it is. 

Why would you want to know…

desperatedescension said: Where you going?

To a shindig.

No doubt there will be ‘witty’ banter, drinks, and loud shrieks of laughter, which I would normally join in with (and indeed, encourage, even!), but I have pretty much been blackmailed into going and I would much rather curl up in bed and read tonight. 

But alas. Apparently having friends means that you sometimes need to see them. 

Or so I’m told. 

desperatedescension said: Ah okay, you’ll definitely feel…

Ohnoes. I don’t like doing that :(

Favourite word?

Hmmm. It changes constantly. But today it is a toss up between: 

  • Vainglorious
  • Chagrin
  • Shenanigans 
 darling/s